by Pamela Lundy (Author)
This manuscript took me 53 years to create. I was very young when I married the first time. My father was a very dominant man. When I got married, I married a very possessive and dominant man. I was unable to go anywhere without his permission, including the grocery store and was allowed a small amount of money to spend. Any purchases outside of his approved items, my grandfather helped me buy, like, diapers, baby food, etc. My husband was very violent and I was abused many times when I did not obey his commands. During these many abused times, I would hide into my basement and write down my prayers/poems to our Lord. With tears going down my face and fear in my heart I would pray for safety, comfort and hope. This was before support groups and abuse groups for abused women, so I went to my parents and grandparents. No one other than them, knew of my abuse, since I did not want anyone to know about it.